Are you being yourself?

Are you being yourself?

Are you being yourself? Do you know that to follow your hearts dreams, is one of the most important guides to what you come and do here on earth! If you ignore it, it will always come back in your mind/heart and be reminded in many ways that the universe will show you. Really it is guiding you to LISTEN to what your hearts desires are. Even if it is so strange for your environment, go for it! Its your life and purpose, to step out of the old limited believe system. And be guided to your destigny, your talents. It is as coming out of the closet and whatever “others” say or your own judgements, fears and old programming and ego is telling you. Stepping out of your comfortzone is such a FREEDOM. I wish that for everyone.
For me it was also this process of showing the world who I Am, and even spreading it online everywhere to see. To speak lightlanguage and channel these sound vibrations of the universe. This way by coming out with my talents, I attracted the souls that vibrate on the same level. So we can do the souls blueprint, our souls plan to rise the vibration on earth. I really recommend BEING YOURSELF. We all are unique beings.
Much love to you, Esnadi 🙏

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I HONOUR MYSELF, for waking up this morning and writing my truth from my heart to you,

I HONOUR MYSELF, for being brave to awaken this lifetime,

I HONOUR MYSELF, for showing up and taking the lead to pave the way for humanity, as per my soulsplan,

I HONOUR MYSELF, for going deep soul diving into all illusions of emotions, investigating all pains and frustrations,

I HONOUR MYSELF, for never giving up, even though it has been the most challenging and painfull time ever to wake up on this!!

I HONOUR MYSELF, for having the ability to see the future in my strong visions, and still be patient and brave and honouring all others that they cannot see it yet, for they have another time to awaken from this 3d illusionary view that was experienced by us humans,

I HONOUR MYSELF, for feeling the longing of freedom, even if the shit hits the fan! To survive my severe cancer, stepping out of a marriage and comfortzones and to never give up, for my heart was telling me something big was coming after those deeeeep intense roalercoasters of experiences,

I HONOUR MYSELF, for going inside again and again and being very lonely, ‘nobody’ understanding my path, people leaving in my life for they do not understand yet the path of the mirror effect lessons I gave them and myself,

I HONOUR MYSELF, for being so powerful in loving unconditional again, and seeing the truth of the heart, even if my twin, my daughter and son and all family and loved ones pointing arrows at me, and ran away from me, for he/they were not awake yet to see I AM HIM/the other one mirroring themselves. And to all the ones that I run away from. I thank you for the lessons.

I THANK ALL OTHERS TO BE MY MIRROR, I created a movie to show how this works:

I HONOUR MYSELF, for LOVING myself deeper and deeper and finding out that that is the most powerful form of love, for I AM you and you are me!

I HONOUR MYSELF, to bow deeply to you as a human, and find out on the path that you are me, WE ARE a reflection of YOU,

I HONOUR MYSELF, for cryring every tear for all the years that I started this transformation, and making every tear such learning lesson, so it can become a deeply felt diamond,

I HONOUR MYSELF, for always finding the humour and joy again and again of this way of living, to DANCE AND SING and being brave to SHINE again and smile to everyone, to love YOU, even if you shout at me, and showing me your pain, I love you unconditionally,

I LOVE MYSELF, for investigating and being curious enough to open my heart again and again, until I feel so comfortable with it that IT IS SAFE AGAIN TO DO SO,

I LOVE MYSELF to have chosen to unite with my twinsoul on every level, my beloved special African man in my life, a path for the brave souls,

I LOVE MYSELF, I LOVE YOU BELOVED SENYO 💞, for being my twinsoul, my biggest mirror for awakening and to choose this way to become a free spirit again, and to let our soul BE ONE in spirit and embodyment. I cherish the moment my lips can kiss 💋 your lips again and we can be together for life. I THANK YOU FOR SHOWING UP AGAIN. I thank you deeply for your wise master words of encouragement, they were repeating in my mind all these years when you gave me the advice: TRUST, BELIEVE AND BE PATIENT, IT CAN BE DONE, and the season is good again! And we are free to dance and live in joy together again my sweetest love. 💞

I HONOUR MYSELF, I HONOUR YOU and both be patient for our divine partner to give him/myself space to patiently release all old programming that we as ONE SOUL ever experienced in ALL lifetimes, to be cleared in this golden age,

I AM HERE NOW, with open arms “awaiting” my twin to return fully home in his embodyment, in divine timing, in my arms, to be united on every level with himself through this brave path, were heaven on earth is to BE. I am proud of you my dear. Together we are SEYESNA again, in truth we are already in ONEness, for there is no seperation, energetically we are united, and I AM in this moment of the now, as it is now united with you, enjoying life,

I HONOUR MYSELF, for that I RESTORED MY LIFE, for BEing now again, be free to LOVE everyone and all beings, and to take the lead in awakening, nomatter if another soul is sleeping or awake.

I HONOUR MYSELF, for having the courage to feel again, to become multidimentional, and REMEMBER the spirit world around us in every form, on this earth and in the whole of the universe, to investigate quantum physics, and communicate with all energy around us,

I BOW DEEPLY TO ALL OF YOU, be inspired to get out of your comfortzone, and be curious, nomatter what anyone says, to be brave and to listen to you HEART, YOUR INNER GUIDANCE!!

I LOVE ME, I LOVE YOU, together all humans are one spark of God, beyond any illusion of religion, race, colour, gender, for I have been all races and beings in all my lifetimes.

I AM HERE, TO SERVE, TO SHOW YOU THE WAY to your heart, take my hand and be curious and brave to clear your emotions and old programming of illusions, to walk this couragious path,


So WE/I can all fly again as free spirits and LIVE the HEAVEN ON EARTH timeline,

Esnadi @ Restore Your Life
11-7-2019, released at facebook at 7.07 AM
🌟You may share this post of my hearts poem far and wide, just as it is here and honour to place it completely with my name and picture with it. Together we heal. I/we thank you for showing up🙏
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Be attuned with spirit 🙏⚛🌀❤

Be attuned with spirit 🙏⚛🌀❤

How amazing it is to be attuned with spirit, to feel the connection of the soul with all that is, as ONE🌀
Sending you much sparkles of light from my energyfield and heart to yours. Just received a message from my artcurian higher self to share with you all. I will bring it onto my youtube channel to share with you.
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Namaste, Esnadi


MESSAGE about our dreamstate and healing 🙏🌀

MESSAGE about our dreamstate and healing, from my higher self aspect of the arcturians.
Enjoy the received message, and remember we are amazing beings of light. Take enough rest and sleep, to upload the new frequencies that are poured upon us.

How amazing it is to be attuned with spirit, to feel the connection of the soul with all that is, as ONE. Sending you much sparkles of light from my energyfield and heart to yours, from my artcurian higher self to share with you all.

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Namaste, Esnadi

Recommendation letter for Esnadi

Recommendation letter for Esnadi

Thank you dear Ad for your beautiful letter of recommendation! You are truly a special gem in my life. 💃🕺

“2 years ago I came across Esnadi and my life changed completely!
I had kept my life as closed as possible from others and Esnadi taught me to communicate and express myself in many different ways, to myself and to others.
From the experiential world I lived in, I went back to see and especially FEEL how I could move in life. Step by step, it became clearer to live in the NOW, to observe myself and also how I dealt with others. She woke up the inner child in me again, and he got all the space to play again.

Because of the loving patient mentorship that Esnadi gave me these years, I have really experienced a grand metamorphosis. All advice with physical, nutrition and lifestyle, as well as mental, emotional and spiritual. Everything is connected to each other and that’s how I got in contact with all these elements again through Esnadi. She continually brought me back into the NOW, in the experience, because I was not consciously present as a human being, I had closed my feelings. The weekly supervision, helped me step by step, to open up old pains and I allowed them to be healed. I did not walk away from it anymore and worked with it, and so Esnadi guided me completely in these processes. By healing again and again, the connection with my higher self opened up. As a result, I thawed and learned to connect again from my heart and not my pain or fear.

Esnadi feels very well how she can reconnect people with their source of wisdom, intuition and origin, raise their own divinity back into themselves and remember. She touched me deeply in my being, so that gates could open. With the primeval wisdom of Esnadi, the wise magical woman, medicine woman, healer and see-er, I could learn to open my heart again to myself, and thus to others.
Also by means of music frequencies, fun, laughter, being between people, going into nature, mindfulness, she let me feel what it is like to live again from my Divinity. This way my loving pure sensual primal strength could open again, the divine masculin in me!

Because of this waking-up period, which I continued with Esnadi’s supportive guidance on my 71-73 years of age, I am completely connected to my life form on earth. So that I can enjoy the beautiful earth again, enjoy life, sing through life and enjoy the contact of the lovely people around me.
The balance in my life is back again, enjoying with a smile on my face I go singing through the day. To pass on my opened source of wisdom to others again.
I can feel my multidimensional connection, the cosmic energy now!”
Ad van Alphen 11-12-2018

Dutch version:
2 jaar geleden kwam ik Esnadi tegen en mijn leven veranderde totaal.

Ik had mij mijn hele leven zo veel mogelijk afgesloten gehouden van anderen en Esnadi leerde mij weer op allerlei manieren te communiceren en te uiten, naar mijzelf en naar anderen.

Vanuit de belevingswereld waarin ik leefde, ging ik opnieuw zien en vooral VOELEN hoe ik mij kon bewegen in het leven. Stap voor stap, werd het duidelijker om in het NU te leven, mijzelf te gaan waarnemen en ook hoe ik met anderen omging. Ze maakte het innerlijke kind in mij weer wakker, en die kreeg weer alle ruimte om te spelen.

Door de liefdevolle geduldige mentorship die Esnadi mij gaf deze jaren, heb ik werkelijk een grootse metamorfose meegemaakt. Zowel advies met lichamelijk, qua voeding en levenswijze, als op mentaal, emotioneel en spiritueel gebied. Alles hangt met elkaar samen en zo kreeg ik via Esnadi weer contact met al deze elementen. Esnadi bracht mij continue terug in het NU, in de beleving, want ik was niet bewust aanwezig als mens, ik had mij van mijn gevoel afgesloten. De wekelijkse begeleiding, maakte dat we stap voor stap, oude pijnen die zich aandienden openden en zo geheeld mochten worden. Ik liep er niet meer van weg en ging het aan, en zo begeleide Esnadi mij helemaal in deze vele processen. Door dingen te helen, ging de verbinding met mijn hogere zelf weer open. Daardoor ontdooide ik en leerde zo weer opnieuw te verbinden vanuit mijn hart en niet mijn pijn of angst.

Esnadi voelt heel goed aan hoe ze mensen weer kan aansluiten met hun bron van wijsheden, intuïtie en afkomst, hun eigen goddelijkheid weer in zichzelf omhoog halen en herinneren. Ze raakte mij diep in mijn wezen, zodat er poorten konden openen. Met de oervrouwelijke wijsheid van Esnadi, de wijze magische vrouw, medicijnvrouw, heler en ziener, kon ik mijn hart weer leren openen naar mijzelf, en dus naar anderen toe.

Ook door middel van muziekfrequenties, plezier, lachen, tussen de mensen zijn, de natuur ingaan, mindfullness, liet zij mij voelen hoe het is om weer te leven vanuit mijn Goddelijkheid. Zo kon mijn liefdevolle pure sensuele oermannen kracht zich weer openen, de divine masculin in mij!

Door deze ontwakings periode, die ik met Esnadi’s ondersteunende begeleiding ben doorgegaan op mijn 71-73 e levensjaar, ben ik weer helemaal in verbinding met mijn levensvorm op aarde. Zodat ik weer kan genieten van de mooie aarde, genieten van het leven, zingend door het leven ga en optimaal geniet van het contact van de lieve mensen om mij heen.

De balans in mijn leven is weer terug, genietend met een lach op mijn gezicht ga ik zingend de dag door. Mijn geopende bron van wijsheden weer doorgevend aan anderen.

Ik kan mijn multidimentionale verbinding, de kosmische energie weer voelen nu!

Ad van Alphen 11-12-2018