by Esnadi Höppener | Mar 9, 2021 | Children, Deepsouldiving, Mindfulness, SELFHEALING EMPOWERMENT
When you are a child and have been born in the 60ties, you grow up with the unresolved pains and fears of your familylines and teachers/society, tribal awareness. You automatically copy and paste the behaviours of the caretakers/elders/teachers, because that is your example!! As a child you trust this to be good….but you sense pain… but nobody talks openly about this…
And so me as a very high sensitive BEing, I now see clearly that I used my survival protection/ego old system, to be able to cope. I cried a lot.. not feeling understood. I did not know then that I closed off myself, for what I felt around me was too much of pain and old programming. And being a sensitive cancer sign also 
was challenging.
And so I carried all of others in my system and as you can understand this is too much.. and so when I got cancer, I first needed to step out of a non working marriage and be there for me. Loving myself and listening what I needed. Be the pure child again and be joy. I started to reveil these old programs and up to now releasing. From this and old lifetimes
. Releasing the darkness in me and old programming to be free to flow in love.
And it is brave to go deepsouldiving to release that what is not yours or you thought it was for you to carry!!
So you return to the pure soul of love and light that you originally are.
It is a process, for me this familyline deepsouldiving resently cleared the last remnants.
I now choose to use my qualities of being sensitive into fuitation of the love and light, and am able now to bring my energy intent to that what resonates in my heart. The energy of the Goddess returned home. Every day I learn again to be my best version and follow my hearts dreams and wishes, of what I may bring to this lifetime to assist in restoring our lives on planet earth.
My heart knows what is best to resonate for me. I AM MY OWN FATHER, I AM MY OWN MOTHER, I AM MY OWN CHILD,
eternal trinity in me.
You can only change you, it is a choise to bring in love again and again. Your egomind will do its very best to “control your fears and feed them”, specially now the media is hypnotising you on your fears… for it has been our survival protectionsystem for a long time…so now we learn again to trust our INTUITION AND OUR HEART. And that feels sooooo gooood now!!
And see clearly through the old programming… you just inner know.. you feel it when your mind is distracting you with fears….ahh have a look at it…that what is not coming from your heart is showing you to be restored.
BE the example you love to see around you.
Lets rock this world, parytime
Much love to you, Esnadi 
by Esnadi Höppener | Jul 17, 2019 | Esnadi, Healing, Higher self, Mind, Reunite with your true self, Self love, Transformation
I HONOUR MYSELF, for waking up this morning and writing my truth from my heart to you,
I HONOUR MYSELF, for being brave to awaken this lifetime,
I HONOUR MYSELF, for showing up and taking the lead to pave the way for humanity, as per my soulsplan,
I HONOUR MYSELF, for going deep soul diving into all illusions of emotions, investigating all pains and frustrations,
I HONOUR MYSELF, for never giving up, even though it has been the most challenging and painfull time ever to wake up on this!!
I HONOUR MYSELF, for having the ability to see the future in my strong visions, and still be patient and brave and honouring all others that they cannot see it yet, for they have another time to awaken from this 3d illusionary view that was experienced by us humans,
I HONOUR MYSELF, for feeling the longing of freedom, even if the shit hits the fan! To survive my severe cancer, stepping out of a marriage and comfortzones and to never give up, for my heart was telling me something big was coming after those deeeeep intense roalercoasters of experiences,
I HONOUR MYSELF, for going inside again and again and being very lonely, ‘nobody’ understanding my path, people leaving in my life for they do not understand yet the path of the mirror effect lessons I gave them and myself,
I HONOUR MYSELF, for being so powerful in loving unconditional again, and seeing the truth of the heart, even if my twin, my daughter and son and all family and loved ones pointing arrows at me, and ran away from me, for he/they were not awake yet to see I AM HIM/the other one mirroring themselves. And to all the ones that I run away from. I thank you for the lessons.
I THANK ALL OTHERS TO BE MY MIRROR, I created a movie to show how this works:
https://youtu.be/1BXpBsasgIw
I HONOUR MYSELF, for LOVING myself deeper and deeper and finding out that that is the most powerful form of love, for I AM you and you are me!
I HONOUR MYSELF, to bow deeply to you as a human, and find out on the path that you are me, WE ARE a reflection of YOU,
I HONOUR MYSELF, for cryring every tear for all the years that I started this transformation, and making every tear such learning lesson, so it can become a deeply felt diamond,
I HONOUR MYSELF, for always finding the humour and joy again and again of this way of living, to DANCE AND SING and being brave to SHINE again and smile to everyone, to love YOU, even if you shout at me, and showing me your pain, I love you unconditionally,
I LOVE MYSELF, for investigating and being curious enough to open my heart again and again, until I feel so comfortable with it that IT IS SAFE AGAIN TO DO SO,
I LOVE MYSELF to have chosen to unite with my twinsoul on every level, my beloved special African man in my life, a path for the brave souls,
I LOVE MYSELF, I LOVE YOU BELOVED SENYO 💞, for being my twinsoul, my biggest mirror for awakening and to choose this way to become a free spirit again, and to let our soul BE ONE in spirit and embodyment. I cherish the moment my lips can kiss 💋 your lips again and we can be together for life. I THANK YOU FOR SHOWING UP AGAIN. I thank you deeply for your wise master words of encouragement, they were repeating in my mind all these years when you gave me the advice: TRUST, BELIEVE AND BE PATIENT, IT CAN BE DONE, and the season is good again! And we are free to dance and live in joy together again my sweetest love. 💞
I HONOUR MYSELF, I HONOUR YOU and both be patient for our divine partner to give him/myself space to patiently release all old programming that we as ONE SOUL ever experienced in ALL lifetimes, to be cleared in this golden age,
I AM HERE NOW, with open arms “awaiting” my twin to return fully home in his embodyment, in divine timing, in my arms, to be united on every level with himself through this brave path, were heaven on earth is to BE. I am proud of you my dear. Together we are SEYESNA again, in truth we are already in ONEness, for there is no seperation, energetically we are united, and I AM in this moment of the now, as it is now united with you, enjoying life,
I HONOUR MYSELF, for that I RESTORED MY LIFE, for BEing now again, be free to LOVE everyone and all beings, and to take the lead in awakening, nomatter if another soul is sleeping or awake.
I HONOUR MYSELF, for having the courage to feel again, to become multidimentional, and REMEMBER the spirit world around us in every form, on this earth and in the whole of the universe, to investigate quantum physics, and communicate with all energy around us,
I BOW DEEPLY TO ALL OF YOU, be inspired to get out of your comfortzone, and be curious, nomatter what anyone says, to be brave and to listen to you HEART, YOUR INNER GUIDANCE!!
I LOVE ME, I LOVE YOU, together all humans are one spark of God, beyond any illusion of religion, race, colour, gender, for I have been all races and beings in all my lifetimes.
I AM HERE, TO SERVE, TO SHOW YOU THE WAY to your heart, take my hand and be curious and brave to clear your emotions and old programming of illusions, to walk this couragious path,
I THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING YOU/ME
So WE/I can all fly again as free spirits and LIVE the HEAVEN ON EARTH timeline,
I LOVE YOU DEEPLY ❤❤❤
Esnadi @ Restore Your Life
11-7-2019, released at facebook at 7.07 AM
https://www.restoreyourlife.nl/
🌟You may share this post of my hearts poem far and wide, just as it is here and honour to place it completely with my name and picture with it. Together we heal. I/we thank you for showing up🙏
See the video production that we made on this mirror effect at my youtube channel:
https://youtu.be/1BXpBsasgIw
